02:31 am - DEAR FRIEND

Right,

Like everybody should know, i have this big friend of mine and so many bad things are happening to her recently, that’s when I decide to make her a party. A 20th, kids party, style. (Laughing). Her birthday is 24 in this month, July, and as she going to make twenty years I had the brilliant idea to celebrate like we were at a kid party, I mean, with big balloons, and hot dogs, and soda, and the jujubes. Everything.  E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. her father... He dies a few months ago and it’s so hard to handle. I loved him. I don’t know what is to feel like but I cry every single time I just think about losing my father.

So. She needs it. She deserves some party, some joy moments, someone to cheer her up. I would love to have a friend who cares about me like I do with her. The girls, helping me to stand up the party and all. It is going to be awesome. (Laughing a lot). This evening I talked to her mother, in secret of course. We talk about the cake, and the people that is going to be there. Hmm, she said I’m adorable, cute and an awesome friend. And there is nothing better then hear it. At all. Nothing better then hear from others what you’ve been waiting to listen a long time ago. I felt so good to feel like I’m important and to listen her own mother say that I’m a good friend, a good person.

That’s all I try to do. Always. I try to make people happy. And even saying the opposite, I feel so much better when I see, I did it. When I watch somebody smiling because of something I did.

You should try, I feel so much free. Such a good feeling.

The happiness. To make people happy.

WE'RE THE SAME

And guess what. Do you really want to know, how could i know that much stuff about you? it’s so simple and nobody could ever imagine, even you. I’m Just like you. I use to act Just like you do. I try so hard to hide myself in simple things that anyone can't see and truly understand what i’m feeling. I put some kind of mask to hide my face, to hide my tears than i don’t want you to see touching the ground. To hide my madness, my stupid feelings. I’m Just like you. And everybody can say we are so different, can say we have so many flaws, i disagree. We act like each other but in different ways. We do the same faces but in different points. Different views. But, deep inside, we both know the truth. We are only one, we a the same kind of weird human been, the same specie of thing we call person. Deep inside we are only one, we have this connection. And you can’t deny.

You. More than I, know that’s all true. I could never cheat on you. i love you too much.

PS. we belong each other.

MY WAY

     I show my tongue, I speak dirty words. I protect you, make you laugh, I understand you. I speak a bunch of bullshit and I love when to be heard. I know how to love, and how to be a friend, I can be a bit of everything. I don’t express myself by the words. I don’t express my love for words, I tell the truth, with my actions. I'm crazy, but by the time you get used to it. I have a huge heart. I love to help. But almost never think with my heart, and yes with the reason, the logic. I live to be happy and not to be normal.